Follow the Lighted Promenade

Oh my God!!! Roger Waters is reuniting with Pink Floyd!!! I really can't believe it. Link

Off we go... I am done! Summer is upon me. I am looking ahead to almost three months with none of the structure that has marked the winter and spring. I am resolved to make the most of things. I've been down these past few days...still am, but I've more of an eye for the happy things today. Yesterday I had a moment of deep loss amidst the towers of a thunderstorm. I listened to radiohead with the first drops falling about me. I took a nap and slept deeply, wearing my sadness like a shroud. When I woke, in profoundest yellow light, I ate dinner in a haze, and then met my friends who helped me out of my isolation. I'm talking with a girl from Israel (Moreno) who just invited me to stay with her this summer. I shall certainly look into it. I feel so unfocused, but in a good way. It has not hit me that the year has ended. In January, when my loss and my sadness crescendoed, it felt interminable. Now, another year of teaching (my third) is behind me. I will miss this group - the

"I can watch but not take part/ where I end and where you start." - Radiohead I feel a little lonely today, and I'm wondering how much of this is self imposed. I find myself shutting off in situations where I used to be wide open - granted, that's natural after going through a breakup, but it's just not me. I've been able to connect with certain people (Chris, Adam, Amy, Jeremy, amongst others) much more in the past few months, and I've been meeting new people - but I still have a tendency to withdraw and to hide behind poetry and goofy humor and silence in situations where there's real possibility for connection. I want to be open, but there's still such a massive hurt inside of me that I just can't be all the time. I've had prospects too...a few legitimate dating prospects, but I've not felt in any hurry to pull the trigger. I want to make sure things are honest, first of all, and that I'm getting into things for the right reason.